frustration

feeling very miserable today for no apparent reason. probably woke up on the wrong corner of the only side of my flat miserable mattress on the cold hard ground. stupid table that i'm supposed to work from is all cluttered with unimportant stuff. hate that.

had a very interesting dream last night. i dreamt i was struck down by lightning. felt like a big stuffed hammer struck on my head. i dreamt i went unconscious but i could still tell myself i will not die and just stood back up. strange isn't it?

nessa is doing an article on schizoid disorder, just because i told her i was diagnosed with it by the shrink before. then she started to research and listed out all the symptoms, which now just seems very very true. never really noticed what a classic example of a mental disorder i was. i wonder if i was cured at all.

meeting up with baby later on. going to get her friend a birthday present, then i'll send her to the venue for the dinner. i don't want to stay for the dinner so i'll just come home and do my journalism and marketing assignments. sucks sucks sucks.