skull cracking numbness

as you can hear and see.. i've updated the song... its so much more pleasant now isn't it? i like this song for the longest time... its so soothing... almost like she's singing from heaven now... hallucinations again... haha

was supposed to go for a swim wif my nick today but woke up late... then getting more demoralised when i found out the damn cost of joining the stupid gym... i think i might have to give up that idea... then i'll have more money to play around wif... hahaha... i guess i can learn to live with being a skinny monkey for the rest of my life...

what to do today? sux a whole lot when you've got nothing to do and no one to cuddle up with...

OH YA... the LOTR marathon tickets are all sold out! within the night they were released! damnit! i was so wanting to watch that! guess have to just watch the normal show then...

talking abt dreams... i keep getting these dreams that i have the ability to control nature.. haha... guess it was coz i watched merlin the other day... it wld be nice wld it... everywhere raining but the clouds juz part and a strong warm beam of sunlight comes into my room... then i can tan indoors.. hahahahaha