giving up

i am so close to giving up... a whole lot of things...

there is so much work these days... its so tiring... i'm almost crushing me... projects after projects after projects... assignments galore... cmm council stuff to think about.... the 3 websites... now there's radio duty to think about... its almost like there's no more time left for myself... i guess its a way to distract myself from other things... but i'm afraid my standard of work is slipping... its starting to look sloppy... i think i'll have to throw away some commitments before i go crazy...

seth smsed me the other day out of the blue to ask how i was... so i told him i'm all sleepless every night thinking of work... plus all the drinking to get to sleep... the horrendous acne outbreak... i'm a complete wreck... claudia alwez worries abt me not taking time out for myself... which is true... i dun... i have totally neglected my emotional needs for the longest time... but i'm just unsure as to what i can do...

i think i have taken a liking to someone... but i cant tell anyone... well i did tell 1 person... all kept confidential here... but nothing i can do at this point of time... coz i'm afraid that person isnt ready... and i wonder even if i'm ready to get into a relationship again... the cleo quiz thinks i am.. haha... well i'll just lurk in the shadows for now...

i've been vomitting the whole day...

i need to get working on the websites really soon.. deadlines deadlines...