its official

its official.
i am slumping into depression again.

i have overworked myself.
i have let myself become vulnerable emotionally by liking her.
i have let myself get hurt because she likes someone else.
i have to use pills to get to sleep again.
i am broke.
i havent had any time where i don't do my work in front of the computer.
i havent had any time where i don't think about what's going on.

but don't worry.
i'll survive.
:)

all i need to do now is to finish my 5k word essay...
then i'll take a "safe" overdose of my melatonin with whiskey
and have a long deep sleep... that's all i need...