you.

you didn't think you're the emotional or sensitive kind of person.
you remember you used to be.
you often told people that you cried at charlotte's web, everytime you watched it.
you used that to prove you're sensitive.
you just watched boomtown.
you felt the pain that joel felt.
you even thought you'd know how he felt when he saw his wife in the pool of blood.
you saw how sad monica and chandler were when they found out they could not have babies.
you felt saddened by the news too.
you remember how you sad you got when you had a fight with your ex boyfriend.
you remember the anguish you felt when you smashed your head or hand on the floor just to get his attention.
you know you feel all those emotions then and now.
you can control and repress all that.
you used to be able to let it all out and felt better.
you used to cry.
you used to know how to.
you know you need to cry now because you need it.
you need the release.
you need to have closure.
you remember how you felt about the past.
you have never been hurt so badly before.
you have never had to deal with this bad a situation.
you feel crushed.
you feel fragile.
you feel so much pain and anguish.
you cannot let it go, no matter how much you try.
you know you have to let it go no matter what.
you need to.
you just let the words all flow out now.
you. you. you.
you think its all about you.
you remember how he used to blame it all on you.
you remember how selfish he was to you.
you remember all you did to fixed things.
you cannot fix this.
you just cannot do it.
you. you. all about you.