aftereffects

ok... its starting to sink in now... i guess its not the fact that i've broken up... but more of the fact that i don't have any idea what i want to do now with life... well its a mutual "move on" rather than a break up... we both understood that we weren't able to put in enough time to work on the relationship... so the best option is to go back to being friends... the most "adult" relationship that i've had so far...

i'm so swamped with work these days and its taking its toll on my emotions and physical health... i've been rushing like hell to do my website assignment... wanted to really do a fantastic site that's like a mock car magazine site and its getting more and more complicated... with all the javascripts and all... its hell... and i'm only half done... i have 2 more pages to go and also have to do testing on multiple platforms before its done... then i have to wait for the rest of the group to send me their sites so i can integrate them all together into one... i have no idea how long more they'll have to take to finish their works...

wrote 2 articles today for ame to put into the newsletter project... which is due this friday... along with our media and society essay... at least they are getting done soon...

i so want to just disappear for a while... cause i'm just starting to shut myself off again... i guess i do that often... that's where this blog comes into play... talking to myself helps a little i guess... maybe i'm more suited for the brooding moods... more productive when i'm brooding the hell out of my skull... good...

i shall have to finish my website preferably by tomorrow... then i can start on my graphics design fundamentals ad campaign... i hope my c_juices dun run out... or my brain just burns itself out...