i'm a bitch

alright... i've been acting like a bitch... so sez the gurls in class... my emotions are running erratic again... dunno why...

tania came over to my place last night to do her brochure... i appreciated her company... was getting all depressive without anyone around... so i guess its good... we did do some work for her brochure design... ripped off the absolut hunk advert from sex and the city and turned it into absolut rugby... very provocative... hope ms chuah doesnt drool over it... then i drank my cognac and soda and she had a peach/orange vodka juice thing... its nice to have company...

tried to print my brochure out today... asked mr toh about the printer in sch... quite alright... printed out a copy but the resolution isn't that good... will have to try again tomorrow to get the final copy done so i won't rush it the day before...

bought conqueror paper... was supposed to have shared it with vanessa and ame... they both paid 2 bucks... but everyone wants a piece now... to not screw myself up, i'll pay them both back and give to whoever else needs... be the samaritan, not the bitch... yea...

started a little on my medsoc paper... will have to finish it by thursday night... hopefully i can... i don't want to rush it and get it crapped up... think it will be enuff words... just need to be careful how i structure the paper... i am emotionally handicapped now... right...

stupid headphone has got right side louder than left... either that or i'm deaf in one ear...

i want to shave my head... i'll go for a haircut tomorrow... i think

my knees are hurting.. they creak like old doors... and they hurt... maybe i should just dislocate them... then i don't have to pursue my porsche dream anymore...

i'm doubting my feelings for everything... i think i might have burnt out already... i just want to distance myself from everyone again... that way no one has to care...


I don't wanna die,
But I ain't keen on living either.
Before I fall in love,
I'm preparing to leave her.
I scare myself to death,
That’s why I keep on running.
Before I've arrived, I can see myself coming.

- Feel, Robbie Williams


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