in times like this

in times like this where you do nothing, nothing at all.
attempting to think, to find meaning and worth
minding the facts, gauging the truths and lies
insinuating to yourself that there's is worth yet,
not?

leaving all other thoughts in the back of your head, you
Over emphasize the minute details you call "issues"
varying between countless self-centered notions;
emotionally crippling acts of self abuse.

whether or not you will find the answer, you
Insist on hammering yourself with questions.
to what end do you seek?
how do you want to get there?
various options and obstacles stand in your way
anticipating your move
never letting their guard down
evils, wanting to knife you in your chest

should you do this?
should you do that?
all of what you reap in the end
lies in that next step you make
in whichever direction you take
may the end you seek, lie in waiting.

(for the uninitiated, i plug in little things that i write during extreme boredom to fill up the spaces in between the excitement that is my life... so there... i am inspired to write some more stuff so watch out for it)