oh yes i forgot

yes... a story i have to tell

this morning i was on the bus when the tvmobile set was playing a rerun of "hai you ming tian 2"... the nkf themed chn 8 drama serial shown at 9... i wasnt realli watching it in the first place... then suddenly there was a very drama scene... this guy was begging his wife to stay... but she wanted to leave with another man because she's had enough of the life she lived... and he was crying and on the ground kneeling for her to stay but she just said no... then his mother came in and told him not to beg her... out of desperation... the guy took out a pistol and point it at his temple... and asked her for one last chance... she refused... so he shot himself... and his "wife" screamed and cried in shock... and the mother ran up crying by his side...

reason why i had to tell this?

the character's name was the same as mine...

and i nearly cried on the bus when i saw the whole scene...

it suddenly felt like i was the one that's dead... coz it did cross my mind a few times what would happen if i killed myself... and that's 1 more "-" for getting in love... what if someday someone does that to me too? will i be too fragile to handle that shit? will i resort to what he did? dunno...