i shall stop waiting for love part I

yea... that's my decision for now... i shall stop waiting for the chance to express my feelings for that someone... i will not waste my time on these stupid feelings that i harbour because its just not the time and place for it... AND DON'T COME ON MSN AND LECTURE ME ABOUT CONCENTRATING ON MY CAREER (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE)...

its not the wait that made me decide to stop... its just the case that i just don't feel enough... i was sitting in lecture today when it just dawned upon me that i don't love anyone enough to really mean what i say...

i will get attached because i am lonely and need someone to depend on... someone to feel for and someone to feel for me... not love someone enough to want to spend the rest of my life with... that's how i feel now... i guess the horrifying experiences in the past 2 years or so that i've had with the guys (whom i actualli had feelings for) made me this jaded...

and i cant communicate my feelings enough for that person to notice... or that she's just oblivious to it all... doesn't matter anyway... i'm not going to try anymore...

i have no idea whether its better to be attached or to be single... they both have their pros... and plenty more cons... its just that the grass will always be greener on the other side.. especially when u see happy attached people around... but we never see them quarreling do we? (except when a certain anime parasite isn't clinging to her beng*stick)...

ah well...

bye.