i know you.

there she is again. i know you're looking. you just like to look and dream. that's what you always do. its a habit of yours. if you don't dream, you cannot live. dreaming is all you do these days. you refuse to live in reality. you would rather just dream and dream and dream at something that you know shouldn't be yours. you like the taste of sour grapes don't you? i know you.

is she who you want? what you want? you can never make your mind up. we all tell you its wrong. don't you understand its wrong? you felt this way before. remember her? and her? you got close, but never close enough to find out whether they were the right ones. you ended up broken. and now you might just go that way again. you know how you will get broken up into pieces again. don't you know it yourself? i know you.

you. you. you. stupid you. do you expect to be happy again? after what you've been through? you'll just be a sad sad person from now on. it suits you. you look better with that sad intense look. you know. the underachiever with no luck. it makes everyone else around you look better. don't try to get happy or you'll get hurt. understand? i know you.

then again why not get hurt again? fuck those eyes and mouths around. you only live once. everyone does. one day perhaps you should go to her and tell her. life isn't about losing everything. life is about winning everything. you want to win everything and everyone. besides, what have you got to lose. go run into the wall for all i care. you'll just stand up and do it again. you have done it before and you'll do it again. i know you.