an overall state of sadness

about last nite...

went out wif mum and sis to chinatown to do some new year outfit shopping... sis got plenty of stuff... mum got a new pair of shoes... i was looking for a pair of sunglasses... but cldnt find any... so we went to bugis... paris miki had sunglasses but they were too narrow for my face... as were all the rest on display... then we walked down to bugis village... i got 2 t-shirts... one pink and one red... sis proclaimed that the theme for us this year is pink outfits... so yea.. all 3 of us are going pink this year... came home real sleepy... drank some soup and went to bed...

went to nikon this morning...

damn it... the old cameras cannot be fixed... coz they're too damn old... went to nikon this morning, with the 2 cameras and 5 lenses in tow... took a cab coz i din noe where it was... ended up riding around bukit merah... and found the place in a housing estate... sheesh... cab fare came to 9bucks plus...

well... the older one cannot be fixed coz they dun have the parts anymore... the other one can be fixed but it costs 110... the longest lens costs 220 to fix coz of the horrendous growth of fungus within... the rest of the lenses juz requires cleaning... and its about 50bucks each... so its goin to be about 500 plus bucks to get everything in working order... so mum sez might as well get a new camera... which will come out of my own money... and then i have to buy a suit sooner or later.. which means i'll be broke again... there...

anyway.... went out this morn... then came home... slept... and woke up on the wrong side of the bed again... well there's only 1 side i can wake up on... so yes i'm in a bad mood again... this mood swing thing is really getting out of hand... and the hair is getting into my eye... and this and that and fuck it all... hahaha

i am such an angry person now! hahaha

and whatever's going on inside isn't matching with what's going on outside...

i am so going to screw myself up sooner or later!
argh!

oh yea.. i watched "the rose" drama thingie this afternoon... all about love this and love that... and i just wanted to cry... but couldn't... so yea... haha... i am starting to hate this conflicting moods thingie...