friends

omigod... its so sweet...
ross kissed rachel...
and its such a sad episode...
rachel's leaving for paris...
monica and chandler are moving...
joey's still dumb...
nana's having more fun than all of them added up...

i have the impulse to buy all the past episodes...
69.90 per volume
10 seasons
anyone have 1 grand to spare?

the dinner

try this (ripped off someone's blog)

1a) If you were throwing a dinner party tonight and you could invite ANYBODY. Name the first ten names in your guest list and why.

- Leslie Cheung (its the time of the year again... and i'd die to hear him sing "zhui" in person... or in spirit...)

- Will Smith (the nicest man in hollywood... he's sure to fill in the awkward silences)

- Mr Khaw Boon Wan (see if he's as clean as he seems to be... and i can then complain about my mum's ill treatment by his "grassroot" leaders)

- Dr. Ferdinand Porsche (coz i juz luv his porsches and vw beetles... maybe he cld get me a job as the managing director of porsche AG or sumthing... never know...)

- Michael Chiang (maybe he could write his next "sensational local play" about my dinner party... i would have kuo pao kun instead but this one's easier to get...)

- Bert n Ernie (i really want to know if they are really brothers or just plain gay...)

- Maggie Cheung (i'd do anything to meet her...)

- Baz Luhrman (he could turn michael chiang's play about this dinner into a movie...)

- Bill Murray (do i even need a reason?)

1b) Name the three people who didn't make it to the list and why.

- Kumar (too loud.)

- J.lo (my chairs would be too small for her ass.)

- Colin Farrell (my house would be too small for his *ahem*.)

INSPIRED

i am inspired.

i just watched the victoria secrets fashion show.

i want to do a fashion show for my multicam assignment 3.

i want i want i want.

i can already see and hear the show.

I MUST NAIL THIS ONE!

THIS IS MY DECLARATION OF COPYRIGHT!

NOOOO ONE BETTER COPY MY IDEA!

a glass full of whiskey

no i dun have a glass full of whiskey with me right now...
but i'm going to get one later... haha...

anyway i guess this is the final design for this blogskin... countless tweaks later... the background audio especially... that took me a few hours to figure out how to make it look better... i finally found out how to make the flash background transparent... but it doesn't work on safari so i had to come up with an alternative... bla bla bla... i'll spare u technophobes...

tania msged me on msn today... i kinda feel sorry for her... she's like "the harbinger of death"... alwez getting the shit job of giving people bad news... (yes u mr toh... u again) but its a democratic/ socialist/ capitalist/ fatalist society we are living in... don't we all have a say?

sent out work for my little online stop press crew... started working on the business school website again...
finished up my kose work... going to have to write a script for the next audio production assignment... i don't like my writing style... its so boring... i shud get a concussion/ muse/ girlfriend/ braintumour and start writing in some archaic language and the world will be convinced that god/ buddha/ devil/ elvis/ supremegelatinousmartianoverlord is speaking through me... i feel a headache coming over... i think its my 2 left wisdom teeth again... i had a dream sometime back and i actually named them... but i cant remember what i named them as...

ur loving twat

more stuff

yes stuff.
i'm in a pissable mood.

after waking up today, i was in a very lazy mood. more like sleepy mood. so i lazed around till mr k-wong called... was supposed to edit the soft copy of the questionnaire today but he sent it to the wrong address yesterday... so i edited it and sent it back asap... then i had lunch tat mummy made... some noodle that she bought... then we watched tv abit.. then she went to work and i went to sleep...

tried to sleep... drifting in and out of sleep... then tania called... asking about the stupid s-league thing that we are being FORCED to do (yes mr toh, if u read mine too... that's how I feel) so i woke up... and decided to go do my banking stuff at novena... i was in a foul mood. foul foul mood...

then she smsed me again saying that we have to go do it next week at the stupid s-league matches... imagine that... asking banglas and china workers questions in perfectly structured english... and the more i though about it.. the more pissed i got... the words "I DID NOT VOLUNTEER FOR THIS PROJECT" came on again and again and again... and i nearly screamed at 2 kids who were talking so loudly at the bus stop... its bloody irritating... then i figure my mood can swing still... bad bad...

so after paying the bills and doing some cash transfers (trying to save some money)... i decided to overeat to try to manage my anger... so i did... i bought sushi, long john silvers, cole slaw, chocolate pie, red wine to eat... all by myself... and i ate and ate and ate... and edited the size of this blog again... now mummy wants to learn how to play mahjong... bah... i'll come back later... cant go to sleep... unless i use melatonin again...

new skin

yoohooo
new skin
thanks to inspiration from the sheep (cher and this one)
cheers

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stuff

1. my throat is better now... my nose still gets blocked occasionally... less phlegm... guess i'm recovering...

2. shared a bottle of "pearl beige" hair dye with cher today... did it at marilyn's place... wonder will it show...

3. i get sleepy at 11pm! what's happening!

4. bought a new wallet... its preeeetty

5. i've got a scary looking lamb on my wallpaper... figuring how to turn it into a blogskin...

6. have to do school/kose/stop press website over the weekend...

7. mr toh gave me 2 pilot pens... i gave one to cher...

8. i need to clear up my stuff over the weekend...

9. i need to get khimmy a present

10. i need to get new specs! actually i dun need specs... i am vain

11. i still like someone but that someone doesnt like me that way... shud i perservere?

bleah

i am coughing... well i had 2 dinners tonight... on a sore throat... FRIED CHICKEN WINGS AND CHILLI IKAN BILLIS!
WAHAHAHA

well at least my work is done... filming today was kinda messy... but we managed... badly rehearsed... too ambitious to want to do a mahjong demo... haha... and i had it all dreamt up... ah well... well at least all i did was play mahjong... warrowz... those women can really play...

handed up my bmr... this whole thick chunk of pain and agony... i tot i was kiasu... there were already a few submissions... scary...

done

yes i am finally done with my basic media research paper... all 50 bazillion letters and spaces and punctuations... and its been one hell of a ride... so fucking hellish that i'm now feeling feverish, sore throat, stomach problems and gastric... i'm a wreck... if u see a hantu looking bamboo pole around school... its not one of the lost souls of the 7th lunar month... its me...

i also had to come up with the idea/write the script/do the CG/plan the resources for our multicam shoot tomorrow... i wanted to be the host but now i'm all sick.. i'll just have to sit by as one of the guests and prompt my 1 day host... kenneth... hopefully he can remember my script... hopefully we can pull it off... we've got such nice CGs... and i just realised we don't have a video tape... ouch... next assignment.. i'm just going to sit by and let them plan... i'll probably be a camera man or the floor manager...

trouble is a brewing at home... bad financial planning by the women... well i'm just broke... everyone's in a bad patch now... hopefully it'll get over soon...

i probably will be coughing to much tonite i won't be getting any sleep...

to those who haven't finished (or even started) on their paper... GAMBATTE~ i think

its official

its official.
i am slumping into depression again.

i have overworked myself.
i have let myself become vulnerable emotionally by liking her.
i have let myself get hurt because she likes someone else.
i have to use pills to get to sleep again.
i am broke.
i havent had any time where i don't do my work in front of the computer.
i havent had any time where i don't think about what's going on.

but don't worry.
i'll survive.
:)

all i need to do now is to finish my 5k word essay...
then i'll take a "safe" overdose of my melatonin with whiskey
and have a long deep sleep... that's all i need...

feelings

i want to sleep so deeply i cannot dream...

i want to cry so much that i don't have to see...

the story of the little black table

once upon a time
in a faraway land
tables ruled the kingdom
instead of hairy men

tables of every sizes
tables of every shape
tables that wrote poems
tables that baked cakes

tables that were short
tables that were tall
tables that sent emails
tables who preferred to call

tables that were fat
tables that were thin
tables that played poker
and often they would win

but there was a little table
he was black as night
he was different from the others
coz they were all snow white

"please come play with me!"
the little table begs
no one wanted to be near him
coz he had only 3 legs

then one day the little table
he saw a vision from afar
a cute little pink table
all covered with silver stars

he fell in love for the first time
he fell in love so deep
but he knew what would happen
and often he would weep

the kind little pink table
she liked him as a friend
but she never ever thought
he wanted more than that

so the little black table
would do all he can
to try to make her smile
every now and then

now that's not the end
of the little black table's tale
he still luvs the little pink table
but never told her how he feels

so won't you say a little prayer
for the poor little black table
cause this story is real
its not another child's fable


good night.

i want

i want to be a new york time square at christmas.
i want an alfa romeo 156 sportswagon.
i want a subaru legacy 2.5gt.
i want a mazda rx8.
i want a porsche 911.
i want a sony ericsson z1010.
i want a motorola v710.
i want a nikon d100.
i want a leica.
i want a hasselblad.
i want a lomo lca.
i want a career in photography.
i want to tell you that i like u alot.
i want to hear you say that you do too.
i want to want.

Communication overload makes people SAD

A new study reveals the obvious: Office workers want to contact anyone, anytime, but hate it when people contact them, resulting in Stress, Anger and Distraction.

A new research study conducted by the University of Surrey focuses on the effects of modern communications on workplace behavior. Its findings show that the demand for instant, almost constant, communication is adding to workplace Stress, can cause Anger among colleagues and strangers alike, and is proving to be a Distraction for all, both in meetings and in public places.

The study shows, however, that workers want to "have their cake and eat it, too." Office workers get frustrated, stressed and annoyed when they can't reach somebody; and yet resent distractions caused by intrusive communications to their own or their colleagues' meetings and work.

The survey team believes that there is a clear need to establish workplace rules and for management to take a lead in setting examples and standards for each organization. That includes leading by example. In particular, it recommends setting phones to off or silent during meetings; setting voice mail messages to request a text message for urgent matters, holding private calls in private places, and forewarning people that an urgent call may be expected.

More significantly, it encourages people to remember that speaking to a person in person is more effective and more welcome than e-mail, the person they are speaking to deserves their full attention, and that the ability to harass someone electronically does not make a person important or powerful; only annoying.

picturezzz

here are the picturezzz from my reunion bbq... more to come.. when they do come...


backrow, L-R:: huiru, junyao, yuhua, joanne, yiyun, wenli, xuefeng, me, minghan
frontrow, L-R:: haojie, hansong, peishan, jialing, jingxuan, fuqiang, bernard, zhihao


tha lady infront of me is mrs chan!

but the picturezzz all look so darn distorted... bah

reunion bbq

i juz came home frm a primary school reunion bbq at east coast chalet... the usual suspects were there... met some new faces... but its nice to meet everyone again after a decade...

but i was strangely quiet... most of them were conversing in mandarin... and they all have stuff to talk abt.... everyone's talking abt their work... their overseas studies... so i juz hung around and stuffed my face... all were so close... i was the odd one out... stuck out like a sore thumb...

did manage to talk to some folks... took tonnes of fotos.. will put them out when someone sends it to me...

then the guest of honour arrived... mrs chan... our music teacher since lower primary.. and form teacher for primary 2... she looked fantastic... and she's still as nice as before... it was so nice to see her again... i was immediate remembered as "the sweet one"... i wonder where did tat come from... haha...

roofus is hereby christianed (greek orthodox) as roofus floompfodopoulos in honour of the athens olympic games

picturezzz

my new handphone guardians... blue one is harsha... red one is maomao...













and presenting the latest addition to the elephant family...

ROOFUS!

help!

CLICK
ME!!!

PLEASE HELP ME DO THE SURVEY!!! I'M DYING!!!

*gasp*

http://www.nerve.com/fiction/anderson/flowerduet/
can you believe it? pamela anderson wrote something...

feuerwerke

well we planned to go watch the fireworks display today... so i smsed jolene, cheryl, mich-zee, ame, zarina and pet... in the end only me, jo, cher could make it... and cher brought her special friend along... so that made 4 of us...

the crowd was horrible today... it seemed like the whole world was out today and everyone decided to go watch the fireworks... but something strange happened on my way there...

i wanted to take 131 from my place down to raffles city... but when i got down, the bus stop was empty... so i figured that the bus just left... so i decided to walk to the main road to take either 851 or 166... both buses arrived at the same time... 851 was first but it was all cramped up with people... so i walked to bus 166 behind...

i got on the bus and tapped my card on the card reader next to the bus driver... then i turned my head around to look for a seat... this man wearing a beige top was standing right next to the other card reader... he was holding on to the top railing and half his face was covered... and i got the greatest shock of my life... at a glance... he looked exactly like my late daddy... from the haircut to the skin tone to the shirt he was wearing... i just couldn't believe it... even the way he gave a faint smile looked like my daddy... i couldn't help but want to look at him... but it got me so emotional i nearly started crying on the bus... it reminded me of the story my sis told me that she saw daddy sitting at the pavilion a few blocks away... could he be that person she saw? i wonder where is my daddy now...

anyway... raffles city was super crowded... everyone and anyone were there... i met up with cher and her friend first while jolene was stuck on a train somewhere out there... kids screaming and running... mothers scolding their kids... it was a nightmare... even subway had a queue at least 2metres long... BK had a queue that ran to its entrance... horrible... so we all went to funan instead... queues were everywhere also... in the end we went to cold storage and bought chicken steaks, water, focaccia, fruitloops, snickers, milk and ice cream... walked to the padang... lo and behold... all those families who were at raffles city were at the padang now... so we just sat on the grass and waited for the fireworks... it was SPECTACULAR... beautiful display... better than national day... much better... people were screaming and clapping... i so want to get a closer look next week... but then again its the singapore team... will it measure up?

cher and her friend left... jo and i walked to the artshouse... there was this quaint little shop selling "local" stuff... bags made out of the "traditional" white towels of yesteryears were selling for 45.00... old metal cups were going for 4 dollars... picked up a brochure for the film fest... anyone wants to watch "girl with a pearl earring"? 6 bucks... 10,17,24,31 Aug (PG)... Kill Bill Vol.1 on the 13,14,20,21,27,28 Aug (R21)... facing window on 10,17,24,31 Aug (M18)... dogville on 15,22,29 Aug (R21)... leave a comment...

WORKSCHEDULE
monday = multicam proposal
tuesday = radio/bmr research
wednesday = bmr surveys
thursday = bmr surveys
friday = bmr collation
saturday = chalet! primary school reunion
sunday = start on bmr paper / fireworks!

DIE AH
actualli i just realised when the bmr paper is due... but i think i can make it on time...

alignment

damn alignment problems with safari...

for real

Music> Oxala (Telepopmusik mix)
Scent> Hayacinth
Lighting> Candlelight

its been quite a long time since i've really wrote about how i felt... well i guess here it is...

i have been deliberately drowning myself with work for the past 2 or 3 months... well actually since the term started... occupied with my kosé stuff, the school website and the diploma website... plus all the school for this term... and i guess i really suffocated myself... it was a hellish period... forcing myself to do work non stop... every night... although i get my work done... i can say that i'm not that happy or unhappy...

during this period... in between the madness... i've sort of come to terms with some things...

being gay was just for fun... i guess the reason why i even started was because of loneliness... and in the loneliness that i'm going through now... i can see clearly that i don't need to occupy my life with a relationship to be happy... it would make me happier... but i don't need it to be happy... i've lost interest in guys... the want to get into a relationship with another guy died when i broke up with that bastard last february... the pain lingered on till now... but i've come to terms with it already... i'm not angry anymore... i may call him a bastard still because of what he did... but i'm not angry with the whole incident... its over so there...

i'm always there for people... and i know some of you guys are always there for me... i'm thankful for that... but there's a little space in my that needs a special someone to fill up... i know the whole singlehood thing is all fine... but its always better to be with someone... someone to hold hands with when walking down orchard road... someone to hold hands with when walking on the beach... someone to hug... someone that's always there to laugh with you... to cry with you... to share little bags of snacks with... someone who will laugh at the same things with you...no matter how morbid it may sound to other people... i'm not sure if i found that someone yet... or will... i must confess that i like someone right now... and she probably doesn't know it... actually only 2 people know who it is... so if word goes round... i'll know who's life to ruin... i guess i can see myself sharing some simple times with her... if she's willing to accept me in the first place... i'm just so scared of letting her know because if i do and she cant accept it... it will very very much sour things up... you know how awkward it can get... for now i'll just watch her smile from the side...

(if you know who you are and u're willing to give that chance... let me know)

back to work... school work to be precise... i just finished writing the script and editing the music bed for my next individual audio production assignment... i'm using the song u're hearing my blog background... breathe by telepopmusik... if u have cable tv at home... its the song that they use for "VH1 Video Collection"... its kinda hip... so it should fit the "lifestyle" program i'm writing for... haha... i'll have to work on my BMR next week... as well as come up with my demo proposal for multicam individual assignment... i think i'll have to do a demo show on "how to appreciate wine"... too bad we can't do that for the group project... no budget and no alcohol in school... boohooo... and watch out in september coz the new tp business school website might be up then... it might look better than the one on right now... haha... i'm learning how to use more flash for animation these days... i'll have to learn how to do full flash websites one day... that would be so cool... maybe i'll go take up a course one of these days...

i also think i should talk less... i find that i'm a little braggy at times... which i hate... i've really got to shut my motor mouth up more... and all those useless facts that i spew out once in a while... partly because i hate silences when i'm around people... its horrible... if i talk too much... please stop me... i'll have to be more conscious of my own talking... and i have to watch my spending... i'm always running out of money... i know money is made to be spent... which is my really bad philosophy... i will never skimp on food... and salmon sushi will always be my weak spot... i know you people find it SLIMY AND RAW... but its really delicious... and healthy too... slather it with wasabi .... *drool*

i will have to change my blog design real soon.. its stale...
time for AB FAB on cable... au revoir and good night...

generic love letter

(Fill in the blank spaces with either a name, noun or ridiculous terms of endearment.)

To my dearest ______,

I love you.

There is no other phrase that can declare my affections for you. There are no words left in this world that can describe my feelings for you. You are the one and only reason for my existence. You are my darling ______.

You, my love, to me are everything. You're the sweetest song that I can ever sing. I would fly to the heavens and take the stars out of the sky for you. I would stop the rain from falling if you asked me to.

Everytime that I look into your eyes, I know that love never dies. I love you and adore you, you're all that life could bring me.
______, you're my everything.

I wish you were here with me, always.

XOXOXO,
(your name) Forever.

*PUKE*

quote

"the truth is just a lie that has yet to be proven false"

picturezzz

rant

i hate china students.
they are BLOODY irritating.

there we were, jo and i.. sitting in a quiet corner...
along comes a bunch of FUCKING STUPID CHINA STUDENTS
BLABBERING IN THIS SCCNGEE-SNNGGCHORRR CHEENA-ESE

they probably think they are still living in their villages back in
kwangchow... coz they were almost yelling at each other...
they were sitting together in a bunch... not shouting commands
across the fields... i was damn pissed...

along comes miss librarian...
"excuse me, please talk softly"

china idiot
"i reading book, not talking"

miss librarian
"i can hear you from across the library"

china idiot
"..."

HA!

picturezzz