absolut moodswing

it always happens and its happening again...

my stomach is acting up... no more breakfast... i'm trying to kick my bio clock back into sync again... so that means being really tired and grumpy... i'm breaking out in pimples again... and ho ho ho... mood swings galore...

well the cheque has been banked in... but its another 1 day before i can touch it... waiting for it to clear... but the number looks nice in the account... bah... got 2 more gifts today... one as a thank you gift and the other for a good friend... n i shud be makin him a card too... tat i will do later...

finally remembered to get my granny her stuff... slipped my mind twice...

anyway... look at the top right side of the blog... yes the imood says depressive again... i realli shud get the mood thing by the hour... tania says that i get mood swings because its the devil's doing... i guess that's very possible... coz its juz fucking painful these days... it just SWINGS like a pendulum on pure heroin...

want to know something?

i am crazy. i really am! i'm like this jekyl and hyde thing... totally flipped... and yea yea... someone reading this will think "god will save you"... my aunt juz came in and opened the door... i know very well she will not close it on her way out... and i so wanna yell at her... but i cannot coz its juz not respectful... my sis yells at her... but tats juz coz my aunt is almost deaf... haha... i wanna yell!... and i nearly cried while watching cartoons and chinese kungfu serials! hows tat for fucking screwed up... hahahaha... lemme bite into some chocolate... i think i'll be asleep early tonite... once i'm drunk... damn i juz spilt some chivas... ok i juz blocked the door wif a chair... the damn knob has been spoilt for ages and no one wants to get a new one... so fuck it... i'll juz nail it shut one day... haha... yummy chocolate... u noe i went for a medical test... shan't tell u wat is it for... results were good.. but that somehow gave me mixed feelings... i wld have liked it to be bad to i had an excuse to kill myself... haha... but i cannot kill myself cause i have yet to get my first car... and have a son to name after myself... anyway... i'm self centered now... coz all the nice things i've done for pple... all the sacrifices i made... taught me a fucking good lesson that its not worth it... somehow someday someone will come kick you in the arse... sending you to stratospheric heights... haha... LEARN TAT KIDDOs... and remember it by heart... its wise words from an old man... but do some community work to balance off the selfishness... its good to get some good karma in ur records... dun go to hell for loving yourself... salut! drink drink drink... it makes me happy again!... at least until the effect wears off and gets me all nauseas and all... haha

you know i still sound very nasal.... either my wish of having a nasal voice has come true... or that my nasal tract is totally infected or decided to turn to the dark side... tats retribution for laffing at joanna's nose faucet... totally sux i tell u... but i like a nasal voice now... haha... next up.. i shall get specs made... and buy lots of t-shirts... and fuck the exercise regime... accept who i am or fuck off... that includes myself... if i dun like myself... i can go to hell... haha... but then khimmy got me a tub of protein.. well shall have to use tat then... da da da da da ... hahahhaha...

did i mention terrence got me 150 years old stamps for christmas (my new pet peeve.... spell out christmas... not the short form... coz the whole day is to remember the birth of Christ... not "X"... so fuck all who use "X" instead of Christ...) it is so sweet of him... :) anyway.. i'm attending christmas mass with him tomorrow night... :)

anyway.. once the cheque clears i will have to buy some stuff...
1. scanner for my next project
2. new sandals coz the sole of the current pair are already gone...
3. t-shirts
4. make a pair of vanity specs
5. get my sony ericsson handphone.. t610 or z600...

oh if i get the t610... then i will get the same one as my sis! haha

oh fuck it...

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merry christmas!